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Blah, that's how i feel. i can't really explain it any other way. my life has been weird lately, i am perfectly happy with it.. at least i think? i can't make up my mind about where i want to live.. i don't really love the city life, i don't like how it is fast paced and everyone isn't friendly and just a total different feel of life.. and on the other hand as much as i love Idaho it doesn't offer me as much as i am looking for right now. i have debated joining the military, but then i don't think i could be told what to do constantly. it would be awesome because you get all the awesome benefits and you get to travel the world, and come on, free schooling, who doesn't want that? i guess that just isn't what i see myself doing. i can't really put a pin point on what i can see myself doing, i know that i love helping people, and that i like the medical field, but how do you know which career to pick? and if i don't want to live in calif or in Idaho, where do i pick? how do i pick? and if i move that means i have to put off school for another year to make it cheaper.. the decisions are endless, but limited.. my family thinks i can't make up my mind.. and they are always in my freakin' business! i am grateful that i have grandparents, parents, and a brother, but they don't understand that my life is my choices and that i am being directed by my Savior.. not them.. all my friends seem to be moving on with their lives, all are engaged, married, and even pregnant. how did their lives just fall in their lap all planned out and i am the indecisive one?