Jesus

"I see You there hanging on a tree, You bled and then You died and then You rose again for me, now You are sitting on Your heavenly throne, soon we will be coming home, You're beautiful. when we arrive at eternity shore, where death is just a memory and tears are no more. we'll enter in as the wedding bell's ring, Your bride will come together and we'll sing You're beautiful" You're Beautiful by MercyMe. I love Jesus. Without Him we would not be here, He died for me, so that I could have a chance at life, and find my way back to Him. His glory is more than I deserve, but I am forever grateful for my Savior Jesus Christ. This song, and all other Christian songs does not even do our Lord, our Savior any justice. He is an almighty God, and I am proud to say that I love Him. I wish everybody felt this way, and when people say why do you even believe in something like that, it can't be proven. It's faith, I say. Have you ever felt His presence? The warmth He brings, the joy, happiness, overwhelming feeling of unconditional love? That's why I believe in Him. He is only here to help us, to help us be like Him. Jesus is perfect, He is beautiful, loving, forgiving, almighty. I cherish what I have on earth, but i know it will be nothing like being with Him, thanking Him for being so forgiving, loving, and warm. Spending eternity with my Savior, is plenty more than i could ask for. How did I get so lucky to have such an awesome God? Knowing He died so that I could live this life, have a chance, and still go back to Him is overwhelming. He is an everlasting God. i am truly blessed by my family, by our wealth, in love, in happiness, in life, in health. I am forever grateful for my everlasting Savior <3

moody. very moody.

hmm. thinking about going to college, i'm not sure how i feel about it. today, i want to be a doctor, so i might as well start going to school now, i won't be out for a loooong time. earlier today, and still to the now, i feel like i am missing something still. I'm not quite sure what it is but its not really a pleasant feeling. a man? a job? college? a good friend to sit down and cry with? i don't really think it's a man, you don't need a man to be happy. i just want to start working as a phlebotomist already. i know i have a long time of waiting to come, but i wish it would just start already.. all my friends are gone, or busy so i don't really have anyone to sit down with and have a good hearty cry. i've been feeling extremely emotional for no reason, its quite weird.. i hope that i figure out what i am missing in my life soon so i can return to happiness. lately the only thing that makes me happy is reading.. i have noticed that i have really high expectations and high morals for the man that i want to spend the rest of my life with. i considered lowering them, but then i rethink about it and know that i wouldn't be happy with lower expectations. i hope this moodiness goes away soon, i'm rather quite sick of it. I know God has my life planned out for me and i just need to take his path, and stop trying to create my own. sometimes i wish i knew my purpose for coming to this world. i feel rather sad about many things, but happy that i have a loving family, and a healthy body.

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Blah, that's how i feel. i can't really explain it any other way. my life has been weird lately, i am perfectly happy with it.. at least i think? i can't make up my mind about where i want to live.. i don't really love the city life, i don't like how it is fast paced and everyone isn't friendly and just a total different feel of life.. and on the other hand as much as i love Idaho it doesn't offer me as much as i am looking for right now. i have debated joining the military, but then i don't think i could be told what to do constantly. it would be awesome because you get all the awesome benefits and you get to travel the world, and come on, free schooling, who doesn't want that? i guess that just isn't what i see myself doing. i can't really put a pin point on what i can see myself doing, i know that i love helping people, and that i like the medical field, but how do you know which career to pick? and if i don't want to live in calif or in Idaho, where do i pick? how do i pick? and if i move that means i have to put off school for another year to make it cheaper.. the decisions are endless, but limited.. my family thinks i can't make up my mind.. and they are always in my freakin' business! i am grateful that i have grandparents, parents, and a brother, but they don't understand that my life is my choices and that i am being directed by my Savior.. not them.. all my friends seem to be moving on with their lives, all are engaged, married, and even pregnant. how did their lives just fall in their lap all planned out and i am the indecisive one?